SUDDEN AWAKENING

So my friend told me that, " You either major in something you like or something that you're good at." At the beginning I thought that I was good at Biology and that I liked it. This second year has really opened my eyes to what I want to do with my life. I'm one of those people who DO NOT like not having control over their lives. I've always maneuvered where my life was heading. Circumstances just come and go but they make me a stronger person. My 1st year roommate told me , "Do that politics shit you've always wanted and drooled for." Last year I've decided to double major. I added Political Science as my second major to feed my hunger and ego. This year I've decided to pursue a route that revolves around this. I awoken this year that I no longer wanted to pursue bio. It no longer interested me, in fact I lost the enjoyment I got from learning all of the materials. Political Science in the other hand has been opening my eyes and have captured my interest even further. I still wanted to work in the healthcare industry but now I've decided that Public Health Policy is a better major than Bio. I woke up this quarter and realized that I should pursue something that captivates me and makes me more interested everytime I take a class. Political Science has been doing that for me, hopefully PHP will be the same.

Thankful!

I'm so thankful for everything that I have right now. I should definitely count my blessings rather than complain about what I don't have. I often forget to be grateful for what I already have. I say thanks for everyone that I have in my life right. Thank you Kaba for letting me love my own culture. Thank you board for letting me grow as a leader. Thank you friends for giving me a reason to be happy everyday. Thank you my family for loving me unconditionally. Thank you Jana, Jesse, and Justin for being my role models. Thank you my friends for make me feel that I'm more than good enough. Thank you for not looking at me differently. Thank you UCI for giving the opportunities that I have right now. Thank you god for giving me this life. Thank you Marleen for being an awesome and understanding CO! Thank you Umbrella council for harnessing the student activist in me. Thank you experience for making realize that I should care more than about my self.

I WILL BRING MY OWN SUCCESS!!

"Accept responsibility for your life. Know that it is
you who will get you where you want to go, no one else."

This is a few of the quotes that keep me going. Tough times will always come but I gotta keep my chin up. I know I wanna pursue Biology. I knew from the beginning it isn’t the easiest road to take, I stuck through it since it was something I wanted to pursue. My spirit has been dampened by my classes a lot but I never gave up. But now it’s my second year, I wanna know what I want I want to do with my life. I feel so lost because of many reasons. I feel lost because I don’t know what I’m going to do after I graduate. I really wanna get two degrees 1) to feed my ego 2) to widen my options 3) just to fulfill a long dream of mine of obtaining multiple degrees. I have to decide soon what I want to do with my life. But currently, I really wanna stick with my current plan of graduating with a B.S. in Biological Sciences and B.A. in Political Science. I just have to keep this mentality that I’m the only one who can pursue my own dream. Obstacle with come and go, I gotta stay strong all the time. Nothing should stop me if it’s what I want. I feel blessed for what I have right now. I feel grateful for all the people who love and support me. I SHALL SUCCEED!! BIO SCI AND POLI SCI FTW!!!

WHAT I WANT?

Honestly, I don't know what I want. I though I wanted to pursue a position in one club but it turns out I'm just wearing too many hats. Tis hard to decided which activities I wanna keep and which to let go. I thought I could do alll of em but it turns out I can't...as much a I want to be SUPERHUMAN when it comes to activities and academics. It's simply not feasible to do all of I hoped to do this coming year. I guess I'm guilty of being greedy...greedy in wanting to achieve too man goals. I think I should start making sure that my plate doesn't over fill since I need to balance school,activities, and social life. No healthy person can have an imbalance in their life. ...I can't just focus on one thing... I just hope with less things on my plate..my success rate would increase lol!! Though I still have this nauciating feel in my stomach from all the anxiety both good and bad..One thing I know is that as long as I believe in my activities and I am passionate about it, I will succeed. :)

UP COMING SCHOOL YEAR !!

I have mixed feelings for the upcoming year. Excited, Nervous, Scared, and Happy...I dunno how am I'm suppose to feel..I get these mixed feelings..happy since I have a chance to make a difference, nervous because I'm attempting something new, Scared because I fear that I will fail, and Excited because I'm about to start an new adventure. Never in my life would have I guessed that I would become a student leader in college. Me the shy nerdy Asian Kid in high school. I feel that being an involve person is the only thing I can do so that I can make a differnce though little or not very significant difference...Small things can have a big impact in the longer term..it might seem insignificant at the moment but one day it will be the change that made a diference. I look forward to meeting new people. I'm excited to bond and get closer with the people Iam going work with...the one thing that keeps popping in my mine when I think of getting closer is FAMILY!! I really hope Kaba Board 09-10 becomes a family. I'm so glad we all get along and work pretty well together. On the side note, I'm so excited to improve on my dancing...I was laggy last year but I hope to change it this year and become more focused so I can get better. This year should be something....a something that I look forward to.

Life

Life can be bitter sweet...i learned it the hard way.Dreams might only stay as dreams. Hard work is not enough to succeed. Solitude is not the answer to any problem..though difficult it may be..ask for help when needed since someone can help you. Never loose faith in god, shamelessly I am guilty of doing it. Though I am glad that I let him back in my life once again. Family is important, though I didn't realize the significance of it. I thought my success was enough to make me happy. I was extremely wrong. Success is worth nothing if you have no one to share it with. Family will always be there no matter what...through thick and thin they stay with you. Friends are my second family. They'll understand your situation no matter what. True friends will accept you for who you are, no need to change yourself. Only let the positivity in. Don't let crap get to you. Do things you though you could and wouldn't do...nothing compares to the feeling of trying something new. The adrenaline rush of being on the stage performing gave me a high..though scared in the beginning it was a rush like no other. Dancing the thing I discovered in college. Something I wanna pursue though I'm not great at it...practice makes perfect as they say. I NEVER realized I would dance. I was too scared of the criticism I would have gotten in high school but college gave me the courage to attempt it. People inspired me to pursue it...for that I AM THANKFUL TO THEM. I wish I can inspire someone to do something that they've always been curious at. Nothing else to say other than live your life...as they say CARPE DIEM!!

Me!

My name is Anthony. I'm a second year at UCI majoring in Biological Sciences and Political Sciences. I know I know they are soo different....but what can I do? I like both of em! Most people don't know that I'm a first generation immigrant unless I tell them. I'm fluent in tagalog and english. YES!! I use to have an accent and it comes out once in a while. LOL!! I'm very ambitious which sometimes annoys me cuz I tend to have too many goals lol! Like I wanna work for the U.N,become a doctor, become a lawyer, and become a politician. I really really want to get into a JD/MD program which is like the hardest thing in the world...see i told you i'm too ambitious. I'm really shy at first but college is starting to change that for me...which is good. I'm not the type to take initiative till I got into college. I never thought I would become a student leader...if you asked me in high school i'd probably freak out...lol!! I like to help people..i'm really friendly and it's rare for me to not get along with a person....if I don't like you then you must have done something to piss me off...I have so many aspiration in my life. I wanna achieve soo many things in college. I hope it doesn't back fire on me...I dunno wat else to write..lol i guess that's it so if you wanna get to know me, hang out with me.