In my eyes...

In my eyes, I see someone I don't like. There so manythings that I don't like about myself. I won't list all of em cuz there's alot. But one of the main thing is my physical appearance. I hate how that I'm skinny. I've tried getting toned in between h.s. and college but it was an epic fail. Not alot of people know this but I'm very bodily conscious. I really feel unconfident about how I look. I guess that's why I HAVE THE PERSONALITY THAT I DO to make up for it. I guess I should stop bitching and hit the gym. But the problem with that is ....the last time I went to the gym, I felt so conscious that I couldn't even work out. I felt outta place and awkward. Seeing all those guys pump iron kinda discouraged me...so I JUST RAN THE TRACK and I WAS HELLA EXHAUSTED. I guess I'll give it another try and hopefully it doesn't end up as a fail.